I hope everyone had a good tie throughout the holidays. I didn’t post for ages and don’t know where to re-start…
I have been struggling with something I cannot really control but that is in my life anyway and I am starting to cope better and maybe accept a little, just a little because me being a control freak confronted to a problem I cannot control has been very hard on me.
So our holidays was going to be very quiet just the 3 of us at the other end of the world from hubby’s family and at the other end of the country from my family in eastern Canada. You probably wonder why we are living away from everybody and I also wondered about it a lot through the holidays…
On the Thursday before the Christmas break I shuffled and hurt my back, just a bit like usual and I was ok after but Friday morning I got up. I should say that I tried to get up and had to hold on to every wall and everything on my way to the kitchen with horrible pain in my back. I still managed to work that day. It was our daycare Christmas party, I had presents for the kids and surprises and didn’t want them to miss out. Oh my I suffered but I didn’t know at that point that it wasn’t the worst. Saturday I was so bad that I could hardly walk and my obligated trip to the bathroom was a real challenge as Hubby was at work. Thank God I had my sweet 5 year-old angel getting for me everything I needed. So I spent 3 days trying to walk when hubby caught a really bad cold.
Our Christmas dinner was vegetable soup and I felt so thankful to at least have something to eat. Then my daughter got even sicker than husband…I felt so helpless, handicapped. I had so much trouble looking after my own daughter. It was a rough time then of course when I was finally able to move around with my new cane I got sick too…
We ended up at the emergency room, daughter and I got antibiotics for chest infections and I also got pills for my back. Apparently I pinched a nerve…Of course back pain(big horrible back pain) , cough and sneeze don’t go well together. Ouch!!!! I didn’t know that it was possible but I have learned to control it and stop it from happening. Almost all of it.
So when the shops were finally opened I went to the chiropractor for three days in a row and I am still going this week. Thank God it worked and hopefully I will be able to start my daycare next Monday. I am still carrying my cane around(it makes me feel like an old woman, hopefully I won’t need it until it becomes an extension of my arm) and being extra careful but I was able to vacuum and clean up that 2-weeks of mess today. Hubby was in his job’s busiest time of the year while all this was going on so he wasn’t much of a house keeper. The house looked like someone had poured stuff all over any flat surface possible followed buy a hurricane.
My hope for this year would be:
- No more (big)bad surprises in my life.
- To have my back back so I can exercise again(I had a shock today before my shower. It’s all looking like I took a few pounds of jelly stuff.
-To go back on track soon with no more cookies chocolate and “poor me” stuffing my mouth with fatty food.
-To be able to do what I have to do without having constantly to ask hubby to carry something for me.(my back again)
-No more flu or cold please or at least only one bad thing at the time.
-To see my family
-To reach my weight goal.
There is some of this wish list that I can have some sort of control over so there is hope for some of my hopes and the rest is in other hands.
Ironically our family Christmas present was a tread-mill this year(my pick) and I still have trouble to walk so it’s kind of funny when you think about it. It’s still in the garage… I was hoping that hubby might decide to have a walk if he could watch TV in the same time and that I could use it as well.
I don’t really feel ready to attack the second part of school year with the taekwondo 2 times a week but I guess I will just have to take it 1 day at the time until it finishes. I don’t know where some parents take their energy from because I know some who have something every night!
I am definitely not on track or even see the the track right now but I think I am back on my blog and it always helped! Thanks to my good friends who stock around waiting for me(you will recognise yourselves)! Your friendship is priceless!
I almost forgot, it has been more than a year since I am trying to find a healthier me while blogging. I started Nov.25 2011…I cannot believe I am still there having a go at it. Not bad, not bad at all. I mean I still didn’t give up