I don’t know if it’s be cause the winter started at the end of October but I am desperate for spring and summer to get some energy back. I wouldn’t  mind being a bear if I could sleep for the whole winter lol.

Is there anyone who could send me some canned summer?

Here are my shameful stats lol

Hoping to do better today

Finally I did alright with my food intake yesterday.

I was supposed to weigh myself this morning but we had a new TV cabinet this weekend and had to unplug everything and plug it back. Hubby said the Wii is not working ad he doesn’t know why so it will probably go to the week end before I can step on the balance board.

All the sudden the Aria scale from fitbit seems very appealing. It measures the body fat % as well so it can come in handy when you are building muscles and the scale don’t go down…and it sync with the fitbit so you don’t need to log any numbers. Just another gadget that is not necessary of course…

I ordered this book at the library: By Flora Bowley

It tells you how to create without being scared of doing something wrong… I tried and I don’t have a clue what the painting will look like or if I will like it or not but the point was to let myself go and have fun without pressure and so far it’s working. It’s almost like a therapy or a relaxation session with colors. I can paint over as many times as I want anyway lol

Tomorrow I will try to remember to weigh myself just to have an idea to where I am at and to keep myself on track. I will do my treadmill walking tonight and see how is my back tomorrow. At the end of last week my back was hurting but it might because I had walked everyday and my back  wasn’t used to it. I am hoping for it to get stronger and not weaker…

Have a good week!

This morning i took the time to weight myself before eating or drinking and I was at 74 kl/162.8 pounds instead of 74.7 / 164.3 pounds yesterday afternoon. It gives me a little smile even if I know that it was only normal fluctuations.

So I re-start at 74 kl/162.8 pounds which is way better anyway

I didn’t do as much steps as the days before but I was in the 9000’s.

Yesterday I was wondering how I used to do it with the food but then I logged into myfitnesspal that I was using everyday before I got my Fitbit and did a little research on myself.  I used to eat meat and vegetables at lunch and dinner and kept the carbs for the morning and evening. I used to eat oatmeal , sugar snap peas, spinach etc.

So today I ate plain turkey breast meat with carrots for lunch and I was full even if I didn’t eat potatoes. I will try to include more meals like this one from now on.

 was so hungry yesterday, I don’t know why but maybe my body is fighting another dawn cold. I don,t have it yet but I can feel it trying to “get me”. What a beautiful excuse I just made for myself loll.

I walked for about 45 minutes at 2.5 miles an hour. I have a speaker in the treadmill to plug in an iPod. I could plug my laptop but the cord they provided is about 10 cm long so I would need a longer one or headphones(I have one set somewhere). I could hardly hear my show yesterday and it was a bit annoying.

I am scared of the weekend coming and ruining my new food logging habit of 2 days. If hubby is not off there is less chance for be to get off track again. No I am not blaming it on him but he sure doesn’t help me when he propose restaurants meal because I have never done good with those. But again, I am responsible for my own choices.

I don’t want to be where I am at with my weight in September so I really have to do something about it. You know when you say : if I would have done last year, I would be at my goal weight by now, well I don’t want to say “if i would have” anymore…instead I will just do it.

Maybe it’s time for me to set myself some real goals or deadlines.

I can put my laptop on the shelf you can see in front of the machine so I can watch something. I have tried interval walking but it doesn’t make my back feel very good so tonight I will try just plain walking at a pace that suits me instead of alternating too fast and too slow.

I have done 30 minutes yesterday and it seems to go pretty quick.

I have logged my food yesterday and so far today. Here are my stats…

My treadmill is in miles and it said I have walked 1 mile which is 1.6 km so my Fit bit probably needs a little adjustment to be more accurate but it should be fairly easy to fix with the treadmill.

I really don’t feel like getting up early to walk because lately I have been feeling very tired so I will try to do it at night.The fact that I get to watch a show all by myself is a real motivation. I just have to make sure I don’t watch anything without walking it!.

Last week I applied primer on an old painting I bought in a garage sale (The good thing about painting over something ugly and old is that there is no pressure to wreck the canvas loll) and I was going to paint something on it through the long weekend but hubby had 2 days off in a row so we decided to go somewhere while we could. I wonder if I will paint that canvas before summer loll

So we drove to the city and we went to a place where there is huge glass pyramids and inside each of them is a different ecosystem filled with plants. It was really good to be in “summer” for a few hours. They had a special display for the Chinese new year and it was beautiful and it smelt like flowers. We spent the night at the hotel, went swimming in the pool and headed home after breakfast the next morning. Just the fact to be somewhere else was really relaxing.

I didn’t weigh myself for a while but can feel it creeping back, my pants feel tighter so I better do something  about it

So here are a few drawings that I said I would share and then forgot about it until today.

This is a view of my house, I drew it from a photo and did it by sale and almost drove myself crazy with trying t have it exactly the same…

A camel statue was posing for me(first homework)

My kitchen table…

A fruit we had to bring in class and of course mine was wounded when I got there…

Some basket of fruit that I had put together, for some reason we were given a view finder(a mini empty picture frame) and were ask to do the drawing the same size but I wasn’t able to do that and always ended taking the whole page…

This is my last and favourite one(my coffee maker) that I did from a photo. We had take pictures of it and crop to find the best composition and then draw it.

Here is a painting I did like 7 years ago from a black and white photo in a tourist book about Australian aboriginal.

The person is not too bad but I don’t lie the back ground.

This last one I did last year not really knowing what I was doing, my husband (and daughter of course) have some aboriginal blood so I was inspired by aboriginal dot painting.

I just wanted to show this side of my personality and am not pretending to be an artist.  I just like art and doing it makes me feel good(most of the time) but it sometimes makes me feel bad when I am not happy with it loll  Any time drawing, painting is a little moment away inside my own world that I used to visit more often a long time ago

For the part of my journey that is about health, I am still off the wagon. I temporarily lost my Fit bit somewhere in this house(crazy right?) and I settle the treadmill argument by asking hubby to help me put it in the bedroom downstairs where 2 child nap in the afternoon. I thought there wouldn’t be any danger if the key wasn’t there, for those who own a treadmill is it safe for the kids with no key on it?

This morning my daughter did not want to go to pre-school and was whining and I had to help her put her snow suit on while she was complaining and crying not to go. When she was finally ready husband tells me from upstairs that he won’t be able to drive her today because ha has to go to work early! @#$$%&?%$#??$#?#@!!!

So she was kind of happy about it !

All morning at every step of the day and everything I would propose or ask  she would whine, have a fake cry fit etc. So when we came back from outside where I tried to talk some sense to her so I could start having a better day she started again…so after time outs…still whining…I cracked it! I wanted to scream! She sure knows how to push the right button and made me wish that she was at school. I went in the bedroom to calm down and after I took her upstairs and put all her favourite toys away and told her she could have them back one at the time if she started to act properly.

Now I feel like a monster…I know it’s hard for her to do the difference between being home or being in the day care at home. She is only 5 years old but I couldn’t not hear one more minute of her whining. I felt miserable and now I am wondering if I just took revenge or proper actions to correct her behaviour.

I feel so easy to irritate and when it happens  the children seems  louder and naughtier than usual so normally I am careful because I know that it might only be  my perceptions of things but today it was really hard to put everything on the count of my emotions.

The Mommy guilt just hopes I haven’t been too hard on my little one…

Dear latté, you are always there when I need to wake up, calm down, relax etc. Thanks for all the comfort you provide me!

Thanks to all my blogger friends as well who are still there to support me! You are amazing and I appreciate every comments!

I know I said I was back at it in January but it seems like I cannot set my mind to post consistently just like I cannot set my mind to log my food intake…

I weighed myself Sunday and I took 0.2 kilos which is not too bad for that long I guess. My thread mill is still in the garage but not hubby’s fault because he hardly got a day off since December started.

For all those times that I hated working out now that I cannot do too much I really miss it and it doesn’t help with getting back on track with my food. There we go, I just found the perfect excuse loll for my lack of control and discipline…

I am behind reading the blogs I follow as well and I feel like I have nothing to say because I am not doing anything towards my weigh loss goal. I feel ashamed as well so it could be why I don’t show my face around here too much.

I am busy with my home daycare and trying to gather everything I need to do my tax return. I hate tax time and our last tax person wasn’t so good so we might try to do it ourselves this year…YUK!

I should be able to make through today as well.

So Sunday after Hubby went ice fishing with a friend and caught 2 huge pikes, I asked him if we could put the treadmill in the living room next weekend and he said yes!!! I won’t jump of excitement just yet in case he forget about it this week…He is not Alzheimer but see if he still things it’s ok when Saturday comes. I know I could use it right now as walking is about the only thing I can do. I would start at a very slow pace for only 5 min. because I want to get stronger not worst.

The treadmill reviews said it was silent enough so lets hope I can hear the TV while I am using it. Who knows maybe Hubby will see it differently and try it as well…