What to say…

It was my turn to pick the “family Christmas present” this year or last year since it’s now 2013. I bought a tread-mill. The (bad) news was taken the hard way from hubby…I guess I didn’t do things right buying it… and then telling him. I am not proud of that part at all and it was very wrong I admitted it. I think he thought I got some of nice looking cabinet to put in the living room and was disappointed on top of being angry at me for the bad choice.

Last year he really wanted to get the whole ice fishing gear. The tent, heater, lamp, fishing rods, hole maker. I wasn’t thrilled at all but at least he asked for my opinion first and I said yes but the next would be my pick. Fishing is not my thing at all, in fact I just hate having to hope and wait forever and there is never anything at the end of the line. I said yes to the ice fishing gear but only to please him.

Guess what? I have learned to like it. I still don’t care much about the fishing part of it because my kind of fishing would be with a net in an aquarium but I like the open space and the view, being outside, not having to watch my child beside the water, being able to have  a walk on the lake, being with my family and finally catching some fish and eat it, something that never happened to us in summer in Alberta.

So when hubby started to act as if I were crazy for picking such a bad present I reminded him that I thought that  fishing gear for a present sucked last year 2011 but that I have learned to like it and that maybe he would learn to like the tread-mill, after all he would need it just as much as me.

I got it for myself because I need something new to continue my journey but I also got it for him in hope that he would exercise a little before it’s too late. He is obese and apart from the steps he takes at work there is no exercise. He has cholesterol and drinks those stevia yogurt but don’t watch his diet very much.

Something I cannot do for him is to make him change his way but I was dreaming about him having a walk while watching TV. His health is at risk and he doesn’t do much about it but he doesn’t seem to realise that we need him and that he has responsibility to be alive for me but especially for our daughter.

I would like my daughter to have her daddy for a long time(he his such a great daddy to her) and for me to have my partner for a long time as well. It’s why I want it in the living room because this is where we are.

I don’t like to be confined to a room for exercise, it has never worked for me. I need it there  to continue and to reach my goal. Hubby says it doesn’t make any sense, that it will take the whole place, it will look silly etc. I don’t care about the look of our living room as much as I care for our health. A nice cabinet would have looked nice but wouldn’t do much for a healthy life and look nice myself.

I am running out of argument. I don’t see what the big deal is, it’s not like he is using the living room floor for anything. When he is in the living room, he is on the couch watching TV, his phone or iPad.

If I could lift the thing by myself I would do it anyway and I am sure he would see that it’s not so bad after all…but I need him to help…so frustrating! I love him deeply but sometimes we see things so differently…so frustrating!

So is it about where to put the tread-mill or it’s about getting hubby on a healthier life? I just thought it could be easier to get US on a healthier track if this tool would be right here, where we hang out, easy access, ready to use at anytime.

If you have any good point that I didn’t use feel free to write it down for me!

Nothing to say…

After the moving and not weighing in so often and not logging calories much I just realised that it is harder to go back to logging my food than I thought it would be. I wanted to only weigh-in one time a week but I don’t think it’s going to work for me.

A good news

Just a quick update on my day…  

It’s been a while…

…since I wrote a post. It’s been a while since I last weighed myself. It’s been a while since I logged food and tracked calories. It’s been a while since I read my e-mails (inbox is full) and it’s been a while since I visited the blogs that I follow.

After 10 days

Today I am taking some time to post about my experience of 10 days with no scale. First of all, I didn’t miss the daily weight-in. It felt like one less thing to worry about. Secondly did I keep accountable? Not really. I ate lots of fruit and vegetables but I let myself have a little more of everything and even a few more treats that I would normally have. After about a week I even stopped logging my food intake…

Fresh strawberry pie

Daughter wanted a strawberry pie today and it’s Canada day tomorrow so I though it would make a perfect “red” treat. So we went to the grocery store and bought strawberries and other things. Is there anyone who is able to walk out of a store with only the thing that was on the list? Not me apparently because my kart was half full.

No weigh-in

I am really busy at the moment and it’s why I am not posting as much. I still didn’t weight myself and I will only do it on Monday like I said. To be honest not weighing myself is not worrying me too much but I don’t do as good with food as I should. Everything is really healthy, whole food, lots of fruit and veggies, home-made stuff,but I haven’t been tracking calories very consistently and I ate too much “starch food” too.

Aroma souvenir

When I was in my 20’s and fat was not the enemy I used to grow purple basil and dry it on the branches. When it was dry I would take leaf by leaf and put it all in a glass bottle without breaking them until I couldn’t fit anymore in the bottle. I would then take a good olive oil and fill the same bottle with it. I would wrap it in foil to prevent the light from spoiling it and store it for 3-4 months in a cool place…

Focus on the right food

Surprisingly I don’t suffer even a little bit from not stepping on the balanced board(scale). I guess it was more of chore than something I really wanted to do. I have been on track those past 2 days and try to give myself a variety of healthy food. I had some walnuts yesterday. I love nuts and when I started dieting I kind of banned them from my diet. I think I was wrong because it a good food is not transformed. Of course almonds would be better but I only have walnut (for recipes) and I know that it is probably the fattest nuts ever but I am not going to throw them away so I will eat them slowly.

Hello 40

Well, well. What a surprise this morning when I noticed I had a loss. Because you know that day without internet also meant a day without Fitbit and its calorie tracker. I could have done it with a calculator but I felt really lazy about it.