Half way through the kilos!
I started November 25 to look at a healthier way of life and all the sudden I was counting calories and losing weight. It is definitely the longest and most consistent weight loss period I have had in my life.
When I was 17 I had a mononucleosis and I lost heaps of weight all the sudden because I couldn’t keep anything in for like a month. It probably changed my body forever because it had to go through that starvation period. Back then I liked the fact that I was skinnier and always tried to become even thinner. What I didn’t know then is that I wasn’t fat but I just needed toning. After in my life I have tried many times to lose weight on an impulse or with some kind of weird diet who had to many restrictions like no bread, no fruit after a meal, no protein at the same time as starch etc.
All those diets had one thing in common : it just took care of the food part of my life in a way that could never be maintained for life. What I am trying to do now is re-teach myself to make healthy choice and use moderation ( I struggle with this one), exercise, sleep better and try to be positive. I also try to find little things that makes me happy like painting just for fun. I am not so talented and if I happen to start to like what I am making, I also start stressing because I don’t want to mess it up. Sick hey? Well I stress about a lot of stuff and I have to learn that imperfection can also be good. Learning to manage or cut stress is also one of my long-term goal.
It’s all connected together somehow and I am reaching for a kind of healthy balance between my body, my mind and my soul. I have just to make sure I enjoy the ride as well because it’s going to be a never-ending one.