Have I lost the grip?
I am just wondering if I have lost the grip because I have been over my calorie goal lately. Not all the time but Sunday I didn’t even log anything at all so I don’t know how much over I was. Yesterday I was a little over like 1553 instead of 1411. Yes Sunday would probably show a gain but not yesterday because I was still way under “maintenance calorie”. I gained 2 pounds from last week. I know that I have let myself some loose lately. I don’t feel totally out of control but maybe more a lack of discipline.
That was before I baked mini-brownies for us. So I was on goal but somehow I decided to BAKE! I ate 2 of the 4 brownies and now I feel kind of sick. Not because I was out of control(even if I was) but because going from no chocolate, not much fat or sugar to lots of it all of the sudden, it’s hard on my tummy. I say good for me! It might teach me something like “it’s not because you crave it and it taste like paradise that it is paradise”. Paradise is more like feeling good in my own body or living in the tropics maybe but not pigging on brownies!
So I think I am just going to stop whining and take control of my health. After all, like I said before, it’s all in my head, it’s where it has to start. I know that I am always up and down but going back to where I was before and gain the weight back! No thank you!
I haven’t been posting as much as I usually do and yes it probably has something to do with my journey to health being out of track. First of all I dropped all exercise to see the pounds going down and even if it cheered me up when it did go down, my body is feeling the consequence of this decision. I got bored with it and felt lazy when I saw that it took so much time! I just gave up on it and after about 1 month of laziness I realise that my energy is way down! Am I going to be able to re-start the whole thing? I don’t know…As much as I love food, it’s always going to be easier to cut the food down than working out consistently. Sad I know…At least I learned something from it.